I am facing a health crisis. As I write this, I am waiting for a bone marrow biopsy that will be conducted later today. I have previously had Leukemia (and had a horribly tough go of it), so recent blood test results have me quite worried. Something is wrong. The test today will help clarify exactly what is going on.
We all know that we are going to die someday, but we tend to push it out of our mind and go about business as usual. Yes, we know everybody dies, but we like to think that our death is sometime in the far distant future. Yet, we all know that tomorrow is promised to no one.
Personally, I have no fear of death (but please, I love this part of my life and I really don’t care to go anytime soon!). Maybe my lack of fear is a lesson from my past illness or my belief about what happens afterward, but my fear is not of dying. My fear is not living this life fully. So I stay active, make time to enjoy life every day, and try my best not to worry. I am a bit anxiety prone by nature, but I’ve learned that no amount of worry or anxiety is going to make any bit of difference to the future. Worry keeps you locked in thought and robs you of experiencing the present.
I had an interesting thing happen to me last Saturday morning. My wife and I went grocery shopping (which I love because I get all the things that I like). While walking around the store I had a sudden and profound realization of how absolutely wondrous life is. Words cannot describe the intense feeling of joy. It was beautiful, blissful and overwhelming.
I looked around at the other people doing their shopping. They clearly were not having the same experience. Everyone appeared lost in thought, and in their own little world. I wanted to yell, “Wake up! It is glorious to be alive!” (which I’m sure would’ve probably gotten me hospitalized for a few days).
The point the experience made is important, and it brings me to ask you a few questions. Do you spend most of your day lost in thought? Are you here, but not really here? Are you living and experiencing life or just muddling through it?
Only you can answer those questions. But please, don’t wait to start actually living your life. You never know what tomorrow holds. Wake up!
Bob Payne, Manager